Thankfully Thankful!!!!

I asked Jerad and Eli what they are thankful for, excluding toys. Jerad said, " Jesus, t.v., and Mommy." Eli said, " Mommy, and muffins." I think their answers were good. Well, except for the t.v. part. I especially liked the "Mommy" part. It is always good to remember to be thankful, for so many do without.

I am thankful for my husband, who loves me unconditionally, and works so hard for our family. I'm thankful for two sweet little boys and all the joy, and noise, they bring ALL day long. I'm thankful for family. For All God has done for me. For our church, and church friends. For always having enough.

For all of you that make our little family better we truly LOVE you, and THANK YOU!!!!

Unexpected Miracles...

Sometimes in life you get unexpected miracles. That's what happened to us on October 1, 2010. We found out we were expecting a baby. We were surprised but also excited! The first doctor's visit went great. I was feeling great and praying all would go well in this pregnancy. I went for an ultra sound on October 21st. The ultra sound tech said I couldn't be as far along as I thought. They couldn't see a fetus, or hear a heart beat. It was in this moment, I  think I knew deep down, that something wasn't right. I spoke to the doctor, and though she was trying to reassure me, I saw worry/concern in her eyes. I had blood drawn to check my hcg level, and was to go in on Monday to check my levels again. I was scared and knew, deep down, this was the begining of the end. I shook my fears off and went to a consignment sale the next day. I didn't sleep well that night. I had a pounding headache all night. The kiddos, and Jeremy went to Stewart to visit family, while I stayed home. I didn't feel good all that day. I did sleep well that night, but when I woke-up, early the next morning, I had started to miscarry. I spent the morning in the ER, where all my fears were realized.... Two weeks later now I'm coping the best I can. I have a great husband, and two sweet boys. I count my blessings, and take the rest day by day. I decided to tell you all this to help my heart heal... <3