Unexpected Miracles...

Sometimes in life you get unexpected miracles. That's what happened to us on October 1, 2010. We found out we were expecting a baby. We were surprised but also excited! The first doctor's visit went great. I was feeling great and praying all would go well in this pregnancy. I went for an ultra sound on October 21st. The ultra sound tech said I couldn't be as far along as I thought. They couldn't see a fetus, or hear a heart beat. It was in this moment, I  think I knew deep down, that something wasn't right. I spoke to the doctor, and though she was trying to reassure me, I saw worry/concern in her eyes. I had blood drawn to check my hcg level, and was to go in on Monday to check my levels again. I was scared and knew, deep down, this was the begining of the end. I shook my fears off and went to a consignment sale the next day. I didn't sleep well that night. I had a pounding headache all night. The kiddos, and Jeremy went to Stewart to visit family, while I stayed home. I didn't feel good all that day. I did sleep well that night, but when I woke-up, early the next morning, I had started to miscarry. I spent the morning in the ER, where all my fears were realized.... Two weeks later now I'm coping the best I can. I have a great husband, and two sweet boys. I count my blessings, and take the rest day by day. I decided to tell you all this to help my heart heal... <3